The following is an entry from my journal on a buzzed occasion in Ibiza. The next morning when I read it I actually liked it a lot and thought I should share it. It’s how I feel about things in my life at the moment. I rewrote it like I wrote in the journal with mistakes and all. You can leave me your thoughts at the end.
“It’s 4:38pm… on a Wednesday in Ibiza.
I’ve been here now a few hours laying out and just watching the ocean & the sun as it dwindles down to set. I’m sitting here with a beer in my hand and thinking about life. My life in fact. I’m on beer #6 so yeah I’m buzzing. Something about being near the ocean alone with beer makes me so happy. I love the ocean. Oh & I love sun sets over the ocean even more. On days like this when I do nothing but admire the ocean or sun is when my mind works overtime. It makes me think about everything. It actually makes me wanna cry. It makes me wonder how I got so lucky. I mean fuck just a few months ago I was in a place I hate & now I’m enjoying life like it’s meant to be enjoyed. I know it wasn’t luck that got me here, but it still may have been. I know my luck ran out when I got my DWI & if it wasn’t for that I know for a fact I wouldn’t be here.
As I sit here I see everyone walking there dog. WTF why do people love dogs? I don’t get it, but anyway… Maybe they are lonely… No that’s not it. I’m lonely and I don’t have a dog… anyway. So I’ve been thinking about my life & well I have no clue what I wanna do with it. I mean seriously I love to travel but I also miss. I miss my family & friends, but know I don’t wanna be there forever. Ugh I have no clue I guess I’ll worry about that when I get home a year form now.
I mean really I’ve seen & learned so much since March 1st and can’t believe half the shit I’ve done. Not just the naughty stuff…lol. I’m horrible that shit makes me laugh, but I mean everything else I have done. I’ve done more amazing things then I think any one person should be allowed in a lifetime. It’s crazy, but I continue anyways cus I can’t get enough. I know I have my moments, but don’t we all? I think I wanna make everyone travel around the world, but when I tell my friends I know they think I’m crazy. I’ve learned more on the road then I ever did in school or college. I’m sure none of this makes since. I think I should stop, but you know… Everyone should love there life & be happy cus that is what matters.”