I’ve been starring at this blank screen for a while now… and have no idea what to write. I thought I did, but honestly… I just don’t and what’s crazy is you may be reading this while I am on my flight home or already home… who knows. Anyway I’m currently in Dubai Airport and just got back from visiting the worlds tallest building. It’s so fucking tall it’s insane… how the hell does it not fall over I haven’t the slightest clue, but more on all that later.
—The Burj Khalifa (the world’s tallest building) with a bit of flair thanks to the sand in my camera! —
Lets go back to me not knowing what to say… so yeah I guess the reason I have nothing to say is because I am going home. HOME… what is home? I haven’t been there in 2 years well aside for the 3 weeks I was home for my best friends wedding (21 months ago). I don’t know how to explain how I am feeling. It’s a feeling of excitement and fear. The funny thing is I normally have these same feelings when I am at any airport heading off to a new destination, but that fear is because I don’t know what lies ahead and I am scared shitless of the unknown, but never let it stop me. As for the fear I am feeling now it’s because I know what is at home and don’t know how I am going to react to it after 2 years of backpacking around the world… reverse culture shock anyone???
The last 2 years have no doubt been the best 2 years of my life and I know they have changed the core of me in ways I will never understand or even realize until days or even years from now. I know I’m still the goofy sometimes immature Jaime that will continue to do stupid things (and write about them), but the way I process information now and see the world is forever changed. It’s that part of understanding the world just a bit more that I fear people will not understand about me when I get home. I don’t even know if that make sense, but it’s just one of the many fears I have. I won’t list them all because seriously I could go on & on… and well that’d be boring. I could also reminisce and list the million amazing things I did the past two years, but won’t do that either. Hopefully you have been following along & if not you can enjoy the adventure through my blog because it was one hell of an adventure that’s for sure.
—My ticket home & my key to the world.—
I guess really the only thing I wanna say right now is that for the 1st time in my life I feel like I have accomplished a dream of mine and feel like I can finally say I am so fucking proud of myself. I was proud of myself when I left, but now that it’s all over it’s a feeling of accomplishment. Ahh now I have tears and I’m in the middle of the fucking airport waiting for my gate to be listed so I can catch my flight to Houston. It’s the truth… and I still can’t believe that I’m heading home now. It seems like just yesterday I planned to travel the world for two years and exactly two years ago today arrived at San Jose, Costa Rica on a one way ticket.
What I know now though is that the people I met, the wonders I saw, the things I learned and the memories I made are priceless and will be with me for the rest of my life. I also know that I’m heading home and when I do arrive it will be the end of this adventure, but my “BREAKAWAY” will continue. I’ve learned that for me now “BREAKAWAY” is a lifestyle of being happy not just backpacking. So I know I will be happy at home taking a break from travel and making the most of it and working things out for the next grand adventure. So yes I’m going home, but it’s not over for me. Who knows what lies ahead… Australia, South America, more of Africa, Asia or Europe??? The world is my oyster and I will continue to figure out ways to see more of it, because I’m not ready to settle down just yet. Oh & as for my blog thank you so much for following along and don’t worry I still have tons to write about that I haven’t written about of my journey around the world.