Wait it is Saturday why am I getting a post from this guy today??? I know I normally don’t post on Saturday’s, but today I had too. I like keeping my blog 2 weeks behind. It gives me time to process things and get post up with out rushing. However what’s running through my mind right now I can’t hold for two weeks. If you follow my blog page on Facebook you know the news already… but now I just need a place to vent… I need to talk to someone… I need to throw up… I need to cry… I don’t know what I need.
So about a week ago… I started looking for JOBS in Cairo. I know crazy right… but well y’all know the story. From the moment I arrived to Egypt I went on a date through the streets of Cairo with an amazing guy and over the course of 1.5 months we fell in love. I am now in India and planned to return for about 3 months. Now however I think I want to stay longer (or forever) and be with him. I will get too what’s on my mind in just a minute. The thing is I told myself from the start of my trip that if at any point I decide to live anywhere I must find a JOB that allows me to sustain myself in that city. I don’t want to use any of my savings to live in a different city. I just don’t want to and I know to some that may sound crazy, but I won’t. So I did what I had to do and applied for a job.
Now I have a million things running through my mind…
I know I love him… but I also love travel.
A part of me wants to live in Egypt… a part of me doesn’t.
A part of me knows I can do this… a part of me doesn’t.
A part of me thinks this will be hard… a part of me doesn’t.
A part of me knows I am doing the right thing… a part of me doesn’t.
What if the pay is horrible?
Living in a country or city you love is going to be very different than just visiting it.
What about the revolution that is still happening?
Gosh I could seriously go on with all the questions and thoughts I have. Oh & the questions & thoughts I listed don’t even cover a million others I have about my family and friends and Houston. I just can’t stop thinking about it… and too top it off I have kept starring at the email I posted above for a long time. Oh & you wanna know the worst part that I don’t even want to mention, but must because everyone wants to know where I have applied too. It’s to a CALL CENTER for a cell phone company. Go ahead and just crack up laughing now… I would too if I read this. If you didn’t know… yup I left a CALL CENTER job to travel the world. I listed it on things I wasn’t going to miss and even wrote a post about the shit my customers would say. Oh the irony of me now applying for the same kind of job in a different country.
Oh well you know what so I applied for the job and now I just wait and see what happens next. I will take it step by step… in the end I know I have nothing to loose. If this doesn’t work out I can search for others when I arrive in Cairo. Hell and even if i get this I don’t have to accept it. In the end I am doing what my blog is all about “taking chances, taking risk, making a change & breaking away”… in this case breaking back…lol. I know nothing I am doing is permanent and if at any point I am not happy I could hit the road again or just go home. So I guess we’ll all just have to wait and see what happens because I have no damn clue.
Had you told me at the start of this trip (14 months ago) I would be in love with an Egyptian and contemplating the idea of working & living there I would have thought you were crazy. Life is one crazy roller coaster and well I’m taking all the crazy turns it brings my way. Ugh I want to say so much more, but I know most of it won’t make sense so I will just shut up and end the post here. I would though love to hear what you think about this or you could tell me if you believe in Aliens or not. Either is fine.